First, I won in the BreastKing contest, so I'm on a card now! Secondly, I journal on my own site now, so if you're looking for me, shoot me a note at threeormoresome at yahoo dot com.

I'm try not to care, but you know how that is. If you see this tonight and want to click on over...
http://www.breastking.com/weekly_contest.htm

Well, I guess I'm back in this somehow. Someone didn't claim her spot so it's up for grabs in a "Best Of". Personally, I'd vote for Jasmine. But neither do I think I'm doomed to last. Who knows. Anyway, maybe this time I'll figure out a way to rig it. I think it'd be dandy to be on the THREE card. Get it? *groan*

http://www.breastking.com/weekly_contest.htm

I've been pretty upset lately. Went to an online tarot reading just as a distraction. It was really weird. In summary, it said my present situation was all about distress. But the outcome was satiety, satisfaction, etc. Like everything will turn out fine. I have no idea how that could happen when 9 other cards were all about dispair. :(

I now have a Beta/Paid account (6 months). I have no need of all the css styles and such since I don't know how to use them! But he's adding features faster than Star Jones on her way to a buffet. ("I can't believe you just said that!") Anyway, I want to be able to play with all the cool new toys. :D

In case you don't have Tabulas on your friend's list, you can now add IM info to your profile.

I wonder how frequently RSS feeds get to their destinations. We'll see.

Testing new break format of (break=blah)stuff(/break) only using square brackets instead of parens.
(so does this work?)
Also, seeing if being mid-post works.

Okay, only vote for me if you think I should win. ;) And maybe mention it to all your friends. :D tee hee!

[Note: not a worksafe site.]

Go now (starts the 24th that is, for one week) to BreastKing.com and choose the best breasts! I'm SO excited about this! If I win I get a Breast King baby tee, $25, and to be on a deck of cards!! I'm up for the King of Hearts! That's FUCKING COOL! I wanted to be in this deck so that I don't have to wait another year for them to come out. :D Plus 2 of the people in the current deck are LJ folks I know. The site is not only a tribute to real (as far as they can tell) breasts of non-professionals, but it also supports a great cause - finding a cure for breast cancer.

I'm so excited! I'm going to promote myself all over my journals, so if you see this a hundred times, I apologize in advance. :D *bounces in chair*

So Jason just left for Susan's. I'm glad. I'm shitty company tonight. You know, sometimes I feel like I just can't win. I try and try and it never works out right. (I know this is cryptic, sorry about that. It's not about Jason - we're fine.) I wish I didn't rely on others so much for validation. Oh well. Sometimes things just suck and there's nothing you can do about it.

Okay, I'll probably cross-post this everywhere so I can get as much feedback as possible.

Some of you know I used to be a software consultant. I worked for a consulting firm and dealt with a payroll/human resources software. It required travel from Sunday afternoon to Friday night. It was VERY stressful because you were dealing with paychecks - a sensitive subject for the customers' employees. Additionally, the customer felt that after spending around $100,000 plus consulting fees (which are steep), they were entitled to receive a consultant who made no errors. So the stress level was always pretty high. I loved the work, just not the clients. And don't get me wrong, I was compensated VERY well for the trouble. (It's tacky to say how much, but suffice it to say I felt that virtually any amount of shit was worth that much.) After about 2 1/2 years I decided I missed Jason too much to be apart from him that much so he quit his job in advertising, we sold my BMW, ditch our apartment, put everything in storage, and he and our two dogs came on the road with me 100%. It was cheaper for clients to give us corporate housing than to fly me home each week, so they were thrilled. After a year of that I'd had enough. It was hard living on the road and I was tired of being treated so poorly even though I performed near miracles and was one of the most requested and referencable consultants in the US.

So I took a job with my last client in Virginia. The company had so much potential to be great and I was offered the same salary plus relocation to do virtually the same job (project management for the same software) and wouldn't have to travel. (It was clearly worth it for them to hire me rather than pay the consulting fees to my firm.) Well, the client had management issues that I was unaware of and the pressure became worse than ever. Jason and I decided to forego it all and start our own business building custom furniture and cabinetry. We did all our research on starting our own business, then I quit and we moved back to Missouri. We lived with some friends for about 8 months. (They had lived with us for a year a while back, so we were good friends.) However, we couldn't get a loan for the business since banks are retards and our business didn't take off as fast as we expected. After the 8 months we decided to accept Jason's dad's offer to live with them and use his shop for free until we got back on our feet. He also fronted some of our equipment money. (Having no income during those first months tapped us right out.)

We've been here for over a year now. Us and our two dogs. In a small/medium sized bedroom. It's been interesting. But they're good people and never resentful (that I know of) so we're very grateful. We do look forward to getting back on our own, but with our own business the cusion we need is pretty substantial. Here's where the dilemma comes in...

In March, the software company that I used to work with (not for) offered me a freelance job. I could work as much or little as I wanted (mostly filling in for consultants on vacation or leave). I wouldn't feel committed and the pay was again very good. If I got a better job before they got me work that was fine, so I agreed. Yes I'd have to travel again and put up with clients who love/hate/love me, but it would solve our financial issues really quickly. I agreed, they sent me a laptop, sent me to some product training (the product is always changing) and I participated in weekly conference calls with the other consultants. They even brought me out to Las Vegas with all the other consultants so I wouldn't miss out on the new developments and workshops. However, it's now September and I haven't seen one account or one dime. Every time the weekly call comes around I get a little sick to my stomach. See, one of the main reasons I quit consulting was that I was getting a serious ulcer and hives. The stress was taking a physical toll. So now when there's a hint of it I get a little gun-shy.

I'm seriously thinking of telling them "you know, I appreciate that you went to the effort to have me "on call" but I'm just not prepared to stay in the wings "just in case you need me." It would give me incredible peace of mind even though it means we'll be living with Jason's parents for alot longer than we ever meant to. But money isn't everything, right? Not even a shitload of it, right?

Any thoughts?

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At this point, the only way to do this is for your users, when they post to the shared journal also post to their own journal. Perhaps we'll add this feature soon though :)

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I know you're gone, this isn't urgent. Is there a way to display a shared journal's entries on your Friends page? Thank. :)

[And yes I realize I only gave him one thank. I'm retarded. Sue me.]